The Blessing That Was 2020 (Day 5)

I am a person who does not go out a lot. So, I thought that the lock-down would not affect me. I was wrong.

There were moments when I was so bored that I do not know what to do with my time.

It was the moment that I come to know how social media, YouTube, and Netflix are “feeding” me with shows that its algorithm determined as something that I would likely to read or watch. Yet, it also became boring.

It demands a lot of discipline and determination to stay inside one’s home.

I can only imagine the boredom of those who are living in congested apartments and the slums. I was blessed because I still have an ample yard to walk around or to have some fresh air.

Understandably, people are eager to go to resorts and malls even if we are still amid a  pandemic. More so with the threat of a new, more infectious variant of the virus.

Solitude, which is to be at home with oneself, is something that I experienced in a new level, that it must be acquired by discipline.

It is like a fire that purifies.

If a person stays in solitude, it is purifying because it forces a person to determine which is essential and not.

I considered myself as a “busy body” because I am always working on something. The lock-down showed to me that I am not so.

The work that I am doing, which keeps me busy before, no longer gives me satisfaction, and cannot even keep the boredom away.

I thought that during the lock-down, I would be able to write and read a lot.

It did not happen. I was not able to finish writing or reading a single book.

The lock-down taught me a very important lesson that to be genuinely at peace, one needs to confront oneself and to find joy inside, not outside.

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